As you can all see, I named my blog "My Life Is About the Ah Ha's." This is because most things don't stick with me until I have that ah-ha moment. Sometimes that moment happens right away, other times it can take MUCH longer!
I love ah-ha moments. They make me feel smart and they make me happier. I guess I just love knowing stuff, makes me feel good. Haha (not ah ha.)
Ok, so that was the blurb section of this blog.... it'll make sense soon.
For the first time in months I had what I consider to be a lazy sunday. Here is what it was:
Wake up, make breakfast for Lily and myself, check out fb challenge groups and create a like page, check out clean recipes, make grocery list, have craving for salad and make Lily and I lunch, find all of Lily's dance attire for her show, realize we don't have something Lily needs for the Grinch number, go to store to buy needed item, go to Lily's dance show, go grocery shopping, put away groceries, dinner, fall asleep on chair.....
I spent a lot of time away from home but did you see workout in there anywhere?!?!?!? No. There are a couple of things to attribute to that. First of all, with Insanity Max 30 Sunday is a rest day. After all, your body needs time to heal and adjust. However, I just don't do well with rest days. It's not because I am an exercise-aholic, no no. It is because I have not yet fully learned self-discipline and a rest day often turns into I am too tired to work out the next day. Oh yes, I still have to coach myself into pushing play on my workouts on a regular basis. I know how great it is for me, but that doesn't take away my pure exhaustion from the work week. So instead of resting, I usually take what is called an active recovery day (or 2.) Those are great days for pilates and yoga. It stretches your muscles back out and helps you to heal a bit faster, but it keeps you moving.
I didn't quite get to that yesterday and I can tell. My body feels sluggish even after a days rest. I know it sounds silly but I feel like I move backwards in results when I feel sluggish (remember, still learning so I do have off days and weird, not real thoughts.) You know what else happened? I had a craving for that salad and I made a nutritious breakfast but for most of the day... I ate junk. What the heck??? I am not a junk eater. I am a careful person who is now mindful of what she puts in her body. What could possibly have happened?!?!?! AH HA!!! ---------> I had my moment.
If I don't take care of my body in terms of keeping it active, even for a day I am less mindful of what I put into it. This is a total mind of matter sort of deal. When I do not work hard to keep myself fit, I pay less attention to the harm I could be doing my progress. Make sense? It does to me. Hopefully this means lesson learned. Ah ha moments tend to teach hard life lessons, Do you know how long I have to go before I can max out to take care of 1 piece of junk for yesterday??? Technically, I don't. I do have a general idea though and it exhausts me thinking about it.
Something I learned a few months ago though sticks with me. I am human, I am a beginner, I am me and I WILL make mistakes. What I will do is learn from them. What I will not do is beat myself up over it. There was a time (my whole life up until 2 months ago,) that I would have had a bad moment (eat too many sweets or fats) or had a bad day and decided I had screwed everything I was doing up and I would quit. I will NEVER be there girl again. I will make bad choices, I will have set backs and that will be ok. I will get over it and I will move forward again.
I have no idea how long it will take me to get where I am going. I am not in a rush. I become a better person every day. I set examples for my daughter. I have created a safe space for myself in which to make mistakes. I remain positive (still doesn't mean I don't get frustrated or have bad days, it means I don't take it out on the world) and I keep sharing. I am thankful for my bad days as much as I am my good days. I will keep being physically, mentally and emotionally stronger than any day before.
No comments:
Post a Comment