Taking care of myself has been life changing... and I'm still changing. Taking my nutrition seriously and drinking my Shakeology as it was intended has given me so much more energy and helped with my overall intake of junk. Working out just makes me feel good!!!! But there is more....
Last year I was diagnosed with migraines and was given 3, yes 3 different medications for them. One of them happened to be a daily medication. I could definitely feel when I missed a dose and I've always been bad about taking medicine. They would be so intense I couldn't do anything... anything. They finally became managed when I got into the habit of taking my medicine every single day. If I missed 1 by accident, instant migraine. About a month ago I forgot a dose... then I forgot another... for 4 days (I told you I suck at taking medicine, even after a year of it.) Here is the thing though, all of a sudden I didn't really realize I wasn't taking it. I remember on the 2nd day thinking, oh I better take my medicine before a migraine hits... but I never did. Now, I'm not saying that I didn't do a bad thing by ignoring dr's orders, but I haven't had a migraine yet and as I just mentioned it has been about a month. The only thing that has changed significantly enough is my Shakeology!! I drink it daily and sometimes more than once a day. My brain seemed to straighten itself out when it got the right nutrients. I get the occasional mild headache, but that I can totally handle and it doesn't exactly help that as far as work goes, I'm at my highest ever stress level.
So yes, I am definitely NOT a doctor but I know proper nutrition is changing my overall health and don't you think if you have a fist full of pills you have to take on a regular basis that it would be worth a try?!?!?
I don't think I'll ever be able to say enough good things about Shakeology. It's a part of me now and it will always be. I don't want to know a day without it.
Check out all these amazing ingredients you get in 1 meal every day!!!! My personal favorite: Vegan Chocolate.
Chocolate Vegan
Monday, December 29, 2014
Saturday, December 27, 2014
2015 vision
I am in the process right now of filling out my 2015 vision board. I am making a plan for my year. One that sets out what I want, when I want it and I am going to have to map out how I am going to get it. I learned several years ago at the MacShack about setting S.M.A.R.T. goals, and that is definitely going to apply to the vision board or else I won't have the means to make it happen.
I have so much that I want to do, but it's a matter of what I want this year. I feel success and fulfillment on the horizon. My head is so full of scenes and scenarios, the rest is a little difficult.
It's been a few years since I set out some Resolutions and while I am setting up goals, I'm not calling them New Years Resolutions. I am already on my way to a healthier me. I have already proven to myself that I have what it takes and I can make a difference in my own life. I will be specific about my health and wellness, my finances and whatever else I decide.
These last few months have been inspiring. I have excitement running through my veins (maybe it's because the Shakeology helped clear out cholesterol, ahaha a joke.) I am going to continue to spread the word on how amazing Shakeology is and how these workout programs are bringing about a change in me.
I refuse to let this be another year of make a plan, get it started but then have it fail because of whatever reason (it wasn't a smart goal, it wasn't a priority, I didn't believe in myself.) More than anything now, it's about how I feel. I deserve to feel good!!! I owe this to myself. Everyone around me reaps the benefits of a happy and healthy Jenni. This is one giant ah ha moment.
If you're reading this, what are your goals and dreams for 2015? Are they big? Are they small? Do you need help writing them out? Share with me.... I'll get mine posted when I get finished.
I have so much that I want to do, but it's a matter of what I want this year. I feel success and fulfillment on the horizon. My head is so full of scenes and scenarios, the rest is a little difficult.
It's been a few years since I set out some Resolutions and while I am setting up goals, I'm not calling them New Years Resolutions. I am already on my way to a healthier me. I have already proven to myself that I have what it takes and I can make a difference in my own life. I will be specific about my health and wellness, my finances and whatever else I decide.
These last few months have been inspiring. I have excitement running through my veins (maybe it's because the Shakeology helped clear out cholesterol, ahaha a joke.) I am going to continue to spread the word on how amazing Shakeology is and how these workout programs are bringing about a change in me.
I refuse to let this be another year of make a plan, get it started but then have it fail because of whatever reason (it wasn't a smart goal, it wasn't a priority, I didn't believe in myself.) More than anything now, it's about how I feel. I deserve to feel good!!! I owe this to myself. Everyone around me reaps the benefits of a happy and healthy Jenni. This is one giant ah ha moment.
If you're reading this, what are your goals and dreams for 2015? Are they big? Are they small? Do you need help writing them out? Share with me.... I'll get mine posted when I get finished.
Thursday, December 25, 2014
Ahhh Christmas
What a wonderful day!!!
My parents came and spent Christmas Eve/Christmas Day with our little family. It was amazing. We spent the time hanging out, playing games and just being together. I love easy days and time spent enjoying each others company. I like having people around, always have. I remember when I was little I used to love it when my parents had company coming over. I don't really know why, but I did.
Lily was excited for her Christmas gifts. She got much of what she asked for. She was a very good girl this year so Santa was good to her too. Santa was good to all of this year, he always is. Nothing too overboard in my opinion, so feeling good about that too.
Good good good. That would be the theme of my holiday. Haha.
I did go a little overboard with my meals. I ate my Christmas meal too fast and it caused me to eat both more than I wanted AND more than I needed. I started to feel down on myself for a moment until my oh so supportive husband reminded me that I do much better than I even think I do with keeping my nutrition in check. So, you live and you learn. It's an excellent thing to keep in the front of your mind for meals though, chew carefully.. chew slowly... pay attention to tastes and textures and ENJOY it. Food is meant for fueling and to be enjoyed, especially when it is good for you.
The meal following Christmas meal was my Shakeology of course. There is just something about it that no matter what, makes me feel like I am definitely on track. It's almost time for my next bag of Shakeology to arrive and i am super excited that it'll be the vegan chocolate that I switched too. It is so smooth and creamy, OMG I LOVE IT!!! It's nice when it is quick and simple (water and shakeology) and it tastes so delicious!
Gotta get my 3 day refresh ordered. I really helped me last month and I didn't even follow it exactly as planned because I missed some snack times. I am going to nail the next one with 100% execution and get the best results possible. I'm gonna do a 3 day refresh page when I do it. I think keeping an update "out loud," will make a difference for me.
I am feeling a bit scatter brained tonight, all over the place in my thinking and not able to quite execute it the way I'd like soooo... until next time folks.... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
My parents came and spent Christmas Eve/Christmas Day with our little family. It was amazing. We spent the time hanging out, playing games and just being together. I love easy days and time spent enjoying each others company. I like having people around, always have. I remember when I was little I used to love it when my parents had company coming over. I don't really know why, but I did.
Lily was excited for her Christmas gifts. She got much of what she asked for. She was a very good girl this year so Santa was good to her too. Santa was good to all of this year, he always is. Nothing too overboard in my opinion, so feeling good about that too.
Good good good. That would be the theme of my holiday. Haha.
I did go a little overboard with my meals. I ate my Christmas meal too fast and it caused me to eat both more than I wanted AND more than I needed. I started to feel down on myself for a moment until my oh so supportive husband reminded me that I do much better than I even think I do with keeping my nutrition in check. So, you live and you learn. It's an excellent thing to keep in the front of your mind for meals though, chew carefully.. chew slowly... pay attention to tastes and textures and ENJOY it. Food is meant for fueling and to be enjoyed, especially when it is good for you.
The meal following Christmas meal was my Shakeology of course. There is just something about it that no matter what, makes me feel like I am definitely on track. It's almost time for my next bag of Shakeology to arrive and i am super excited that it'll be the vegan chocolate that I switched too. It is so smooth and creamy, OMG I LOVE IT!!! It's nice when it is quick and simple (water and shakeology) and it tastes so delicious!
Gotta get my 3 day refresh ordered. I really helped me last month and I didn't even follow it exactly as planned because I missed some snack times. I am going to nail the next one with 100% execution and get the best results possible. I'm gonna do a 3 day refresh page when I do it. I think keeping an update "out loud," will make a difference for me.
I am feeling a bit scatter brained tonight, all over the place in my thinking and not able to quite execute it the way I'd like soooo... until next time folks.... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
Tuesday, December 23, 2014
Insanity Max 30... so far
So last Monday I started a new workout program. The challenge group I joined for it just started yesterday but I went ahead and got started a little early because I was super excited!!!
The program is Insanity Max 30. The idea is that you push yourself as hard as you can and as soon as you need a break or lose proper form you max out. This workout is presenting all kinds of new challenges for me. A few months ago I would have come up with so many excuses and I would already be done. I'm hurting, I'm tired and on top of it all, I feel amazing!!
I use a lot of modifications in this workout, but that is totally acceptable. It's not called Insanity Max 30 but only max out if you don't modify.
I have my max out calendar hanging on my living room wall where it stares at me everyday as a gentle reminder to get up and push play. I am so certain I am going to have very desirable results when I complete my 60 days. I can't wait to compare my before and after photos. I am a little tempted to do some 1 week in measurements, but I won't. It makes me want to work that much harder.
I can't wait for Christmas snacks to be out of this place entirely. I'm doing very well, but each day the temptation for sweets gets a little stronger. I have my Shakeology to help hold it at bay, but sometimes the mind just plays games on a person. The nutrition part of healthy living is the most important part and it's the easiest for me to lose sight of. Food has been my drug for such a long time. I love that Insanity Max uses the portion control containers from 21 day fix, then it's in the front of my brain to be mindful of what is going into my mouth and how much of it.
So..... Having a great week with this program. I can feel myself getting stronger each day and before you know it, I'm going to be a master of the push up (just saying...)
Short post tonight, it's late and the kiddo has to go to bed. Plus, I need to wash off the sweat from a very intense workout. TMI??? Too bad. Hahaha.
The program is Insanity Max 30. The idea is that you push yourself as hard as you can and as soon as you need a break or lose proper form you max out. This workout is presenting all kinds of new challenges for me. A few months ago I would have come up with so many excuses and I would already be done. I'm hurting, I'm tired and on top of it all, I feel amazing!!
I use a lot of modifications in this workout, but that is totally acceptable. It's not called Insanity Max 30 but only max out if you don't modify.
I have my max out calendar hanging on my living room wall where it stares at me everyday as a gentle reminder to get up and push play. I am so certain I am going to have very desirable results when I complete my 60 days. I can't wait to compare my before and after photos. I am a little tempted to do some 1 week in measurements, but I won't. It makes me want to work that much harder.
I can't wait for Christmas snacks to be out of this place entirely. I'm doing very well, but each day the temptation for sweets gets a little stronger. I have my Shakeology to help hold it at bay, but sometimes the mind just plays games on a person. The nutrition part of healthy living is the most important part and it's the easiest for me to lose sight of. Food has been my drug for such a long time. I love that Insanity Max uses the portion control containers from 21 day fix, then it's in the front of my brain to be mindful of what is going into my mouth and how much of it.
So..... Having a great week with this program. I can feel myself getting stronger each day and before you know it, I'm going to be a master of the push up (just saying...)
Short post tonight, it's late and the kiddo has to go to bed. Plus, I need to wash off the sweat from a very intense workout. TMI??? Too bad. Hahaha.
Monday, December 22, 2014
What is this ah ha I speak of
As you can all see, I named my blog "My Life Is About the Ah Ha's." This is because most things don't stick with me until I have that ah-ha moment. Sometimes that moment happens right away, other times it can take MUCH longer!
I love ah-ha moments. They make me feel smart and they make me happier. I guess I just love knowing stuff, makes me feel good. Haha (not ah ha.)
Ok, so that was the blurb section of this blog.... it'll make sense soon.
For the first time in months I had what I consider to be a lazy sunday. Here is what it was:
Wake up, make breakfast for Lily and myself, check out fb challenge groups and create a like page, check out clean recipes, make grocery list, have craving for salad and make Lily and I lunch, find all of Lily's dance attire for her show, realize we don't have something Lily needs for the Grinch number, go to store to buy needed item, go to Lily's dance show, go grocery shopping, put away groceries, dinner, fall asleep on chair.....
I spent a lot of time away from home but did you see workout in there anywhere?!?!?!? No. There are a couple of things to attribute to that. First of all, with Insanity Max 30 Sunday is a rest day. After all, your body needs time to heal and adjust. However, I just don't do well with rest days. It's not because I am an exercise-aholic, no no. It is because I have not yet fully learned self-discipline and a rest day often turns into I am too tired to work out the next day. Oh yes, I still have to coach myself into pushing play on my workouts on a regular basis. I know how great it is for me, but that doesn't take away my pure exhaustion from the work week. So instead of resting, I usually take what is called an active recovery day (or 2.) Those are great days for pilates and yoga. It stretches your muscles back out and helps you to heal a bit faster, but it keeps you moving.
I didn't quite get to that yesterday and I can tell. My body feels sluggish even after a days rest. I know it sounds silly but I feel like I move backwards in results when I feel sluggish (remember, still learning so I do have off days and weird, not real thoughts.) You know what else happened? I had a craving for that salad and I made a nutritious breakfast but for most of the day... I ate junk. What the heck??? I am not a junk eater. I am a careful person who is now mindful of what she puts in her body. What could possibly have happened?!?!?! AH HA!!! ---------> I had my moment.
If I don't take care of my body in terms of keeping it active, even for a day I am less mindful of what I put into it. This is a total mind of matter sort of deal. When I do not work hard to keep myself fit, I pay less attention to the harm I could be doing my progress. Make sense? It does to me. Hopefully this means lesson learned. Ah ha moments tend to teach hard life lessons, Do you know how long I have to go before I can max out to take care of 1 piece of junk for yesterday??? Technically, I don't. I do have a general idea though and it exhausts me thinking about it.
Something I learned a few months ago though sticks with me. I am human, I am a beginner, I am me and I WILL make mistakes. What I will do is learn from them. What I will not do is beat myself up over it. There was a time (my whole life up until 2 months ago,) that I would have had a bad moment (eat too many sweets or fats) or had a bad day and decided I had screwed everything I was doing up and I would quit. I will NEVER be there girl again. I will make bad choices, I will have set backs and that will be ok. I will get over it and I will move forward again.
I have no idea how long it will take me to get where I am going. I am not in a rush. I become a better person every day. I set examples for my daughter. I have created a safe space for myself in which to make mistakes. I remain positive (still doesn't mean I don't get frustrated or have bad days, it means I don't take it out on the world) and I keep sharing. I am thankful for my bad days as much as I am my good days. I will keep being physically, mentally and emotionally stronger than any day before.
I love ah-ha moments. They make me feel smart and they make me happier. I guess I just love knowing stuff, makes me feel good. Haha (not ah ha.)
Ok, so that was the blurb section of this blog.... it'll make sense soon.
For the first time in months I had what I consider to be a lazy sunday. Here is what it was:
Wake up, make breakfast for Lily and myself, check out fb challenge groups and create a like page, check out clean recipes, make grocery list, have craving for salad and make Lily and I lunch, find all of Lily's dance attire for her show, realize we don't have something Lily needs for the Grinch number, go to store to buy needed item, go to Lily's dance show, go grocery shopping, put away groceries, dinner, fall asleep on chair.....
I spent a lot of time away from home but did you see workout in there anywhere?!?!?!? No. There are a couple of things to attribute to that. First of all, with Insanity Max 30 Sunday is a rest day. After all, your body needs time to heal and adjust. However, I just don't do well with rest days. It's not because I am an exercise-aholic, no no. It is because I have not yet fully learned self-discipline and a rest day often turns into I am too tired to work out the next day. Oh yes, I still have to coach myself into pushing play on my workouts on a regular basis. I know how great it is for me, but that doesn't take away my pure exhaustion from the work week. So instead of resting, I usually take what is called an active recovery day (or 2.) Those are great days for pilates and yoga. It stretches your muscles back out and helps you to heal a bit faster, but it keeps you moving.
I didn't quite get to that yesterday and I can tell. My body feels sluggish even after a days rest. I know it sounds silly but I feel like I move backwards in results when I feel sluggish (remember, still learning so I do have off days and weird, not real thoughts.) You know what else happened? I had a craving for that salad and I made a nutritious breakfast but for most of the day... I ate junk. What the heck??? I am not a junk eater. I am a careful person who is now mindful of what she puts in her body. What could possibly have happened?!?!?! AH HA!!! ---------> I had my moment.
If I don't take care of my body in terms of keeping it active, even for a day I am less mindful of what I put into it. This is a total mind of matter sort of deal. When I do not work hard to keep myself fit, I pay less attention to the harm I could be doing my progress. Make sense? It does to me. Hopefully this means lesson learned. Ah ha moments tend to teach hard life lessons, Do you know how long I have to go before I can max out to take care of 1 piece of junk for yesterday??? Technically, I don't. I do have a general idea though and it exhausts me thinking about it.
Something I learned a few months ago though sticks with me. I am human, I am a beginner, I am me and I WILL make mistakes. What I will do is learn from them. What I will not do is beat myself up over it. There was a time (my whole life up until 2 months ago,) that I would have had a bad moment (eat too many sweets or fats) or had a bad day and decided I had screwed everything I was doing up and I would quit. I will NEVER be there girl again. I will make bad choices, I will have set backs and that will be ok. I will get over it and I will move forward again.
I have no idea how long it will take me to get where I am going. I am not in a rush. I become a better person every day. I set examples for my daughter. I have created a safe space for myself in which to make mistakes. I remain positive (still doesn't mean I don't get frustrated or have bad days, it means I don't take it out on the world) and I keep sharing. I am thankful for my bad days as much as I am my good days. I will keep being physically, mentally and emotionally stronger than any day before.
Saturday, December 20, 2014
How it got re-started
Let me tell you how I got started what feels like much longer than 2 months ago... well, in a way it was...
I have joined random workout challenges on Facebook hosted by friends before. I usually stay pretty strong, for about half of the challenge. I have tried so many different ways to get into a healthy routine but nothing ever seems to last. Maybe it's because it bores me or maybe it was just me being lazy.
Back in July I saw a friend who was posting stuff about working out and eating healthy and she was co-hosting a challenge group so I asked for more information. It all seemed great, so I decided to give it a try. I picked out a flavor of Shakeology and a workout that would fit what I needed and became part of the challenge group. For about the first week I did what I was asked. I posted in the challenge, I worked out and I drank my Shakeology. It was not easy.
I had ordered vanilla Shakeology after asking my husband what flavor he might be willing to try if he wanted to. I was never sold on the idea of vanilla, I'm not really a vanilla girl but that's what I went for. I quickly learned that it wasn't the right choice for me. I didn't do the program the way that it was intended and I quickly gave up.
I filled out a questionnaire for my coach explaining why I wanted to make changes in my life and because she just refused to give up on me, she asked if I wanted to join a new challenge in October. I was still doing Shakeology but by this time i had tried additional flavors and fell in love with the chocolate!!!! I said yes to joining a new challenge and even got a new workout program. I decided on the 21 day fix because I was seeing a lot of stuff about it. The 21 day fix is not only about working out, but learning to make nutritious meal and snack choices.
I could not have loved this program any more!!!!! I did more than 1 round of the 21 day fix and learned about portion sizes and even now continue to learn about what foods are best for my body. I rarely miss a day of Shakeology and it most certainly is NEVER (yes, never, seriously) on purpose. Shakeology is the most consistent thing in my daily life and I think that is wonderful. I just completed the challenge that started in October. To be honest, I fell off in posting in the challenge group, but I held tight in all the actions. I workout regularly (sometimes I do miss one, but there is no reason to beat myself up over it,) I have my daily dose of dense superfood nutrition, I make smart choices about the rest of my meals and snacks and I spend time working on my self development. It feels so good to be getting back to feeling like myself and doing things for myself.
I just started another new workout program. I just finished my first week of Shaun T's Insanity Max: 30. This workout is crazy!!! It pushes you to your extremes. It is scary, exciting, intense and a whole lot of fun!!! I can not wait to see my end results. This program will challenge me both mentally and physically and I feel more ready for the challenge than ever. I am definitely revising who I am. I don't want to say changing myself, because I am changing actions but I am not changing who I am just getting back to the side of me I have always loved and have hidden for some time now.
Great things are happening to me and to my family!! It feels wonderful to just, well feel WONDERFUL!!! I hope that one day something about my struggle inspires another and that we spread joy to each other so we can live happily and healthy.
I have joined random workout challenges on Facebook hosted by friends before. I usually stay pretty strong, for about half of the challenge. I have tried so many different ways to get into a healthy routine but nothing ever seems to last. Maybe it's because it bores me or maybe it was just me being lazy.
Back in July I saw a friend who was posting stuff about working out and eating healthy and she was co-hosting a challenge group so I asked for more information. It all seemed great, so I decided to give it a try. I picked out a flavor of Shakeology and a workout that would fit what I needed and became part of the challenge group. For about the first week I did what I was asked. I posted in the challenge, I worked out and I drank my Shakeology. It was not easy.
I had ordered vanilla Shakeology after asking my husband what flavor he might be willing to try if he wanted to. I was never sold on the idea of vanilla, I'm not really a vanilla girl but that's what I went for. I quickly learned that it wasn't the right choice for me. I didn't do the program the way that it was intended and I quickly gave up.
I filled out a questionnaire for my coach explaining why I wanted to make changes in my life and because she just refused to give up on me, she asked if I wanted to join a new challenge in October. I was still doing Shakeology but by this time i had tried additional flavors and fell in love with the chocolate!!!! I said yes to joining a new challenge and even got a new workout program. I decided on the 21 day fix because I was seeing a lot of stuff about it. The 21 day fix is not only about working out, but learning to make nutritious meal and snack choices.
I could not have loved this program any more!!!!! I did more than 1 round of the 21 day fix and learned about portion sizes and even now continue to learn about what foods are best for my body. I rarely miss a day of Shakeology and it most certainly is NEVER (yes, never, seriously) on purpose. Shakeology is the most consistent thing in my daily life and I think that is wonderful. I just completed the challenge that started in October. To be honest, I fell off in posting in the challenge group, but I held tight in all the actions. I workout regularly (sometimes I do miss one, but there is no reason to beat myself up over it,) I have my daily dose of dense superfood nutrition, I make smart choices about the rest of my meals and snacks and I spend time working on my self development. It feels so good to be getting back to feeling like myself and doing things for myself.
I just started another new workout program. I just finished my first week of Shaun T's Insanity Max: 30. This workout is crazy!!! It pushes you to your extremes. It is scary, exciting, intense and a whole lot of fun!!! I can not wait to see my end results. This program will challenge me both mentally and physically and I feel more ready for the challenge than ever. I am definitely revising who I am. I don't want to say changing myself, because I am changing actions but I am not changing who I am just getting back to the side of me I have always loved and have hidden for some time now.
Great things are happening to me and to my family!! It feels wonderful to just, well feel WONDERFUL!!! I hope that one day something about my struggle inspires another and that we spread joy to each other so we can live happily and healthy.
Thursday, December 18, 2014
It's sort of the beginning...
This is most certainly not my first at a blog attempt. I get bored easily and tend to be more of a listener than a talker (maybe...) Let's see how this goes.
These last 2 1/2 months I have made a lot of progress with my personal struggles. I have become more aware of how I am feeling and how I come across to others. I focus on positivity and it shows in the people around me. I will share more details of my journey start later. Today, it's about something else.....
I did what I was supposed to. I went to college, graduated with a degree and then went out to work. Was it a glamorous job? No. Did it pay the bills? That and more. Did I enjoy it? In the beginning. I spent nearly a decade working for McDonalds. I met some of the greatest people I will ever know, I could pretty much buy whatever I wanted to, I got to have vacations, great insurance but at some point it all changed for me. It was in the last few years when I was working 45+ hours each week and depending on where I had to pick up Lily from it was an hour drive minimum 1 way. I seemed to be stuck in a position I never thought I would never move from. So, I left.
You know it had to be bad to leave for a paycut, lose vacation and work more hours. But I did it. I struggled with the new job at first, I just didn't feel like I was getting anywhere with the training. Sheer fear is what I credit now. I moved up with this company fast! 11 months in and I had been moved between 5 stores, always onto a bigger/busier one. Then in March I got "my very own store." It was so difficult in the beginning because I was new, I was scared and I think the employees could smell my fear. Fast forward to early summer and things start going a little better. Fast forward a little farther and I'm just as miserable in less than 2 years than I was with McDonalds after 9.
I am the kind of person who does not like to rush. I keep finding myself in that type of business. Do more with less and do it faster than before. I get it, that's the retail world. I do not belong there. I like to be appreciated for what I am doing and to be able to take the time to actually show others that they are appreciated.
Most of all, I want a job that doesn't take most of my waking moments and suck them up. I feel like I have missed most of the last 5 years of my beautiful daughters' life. Because, I did what I was supposed to do. I get so jealous of stay at home mom's and dad's. I don't think what they do is any easier, but it has to be far more rewarding. On the other hand, I love being able to have extra money to eat out, go shopping or go out and have fun. My life has felt incredibly unbalanced.
It's time to change that. I want to teach my daughter about people, feelings and quality of life not about what money can buy.
My husband recently told me that I have some "things" that I need to let go. I have to learn to let stuff go. My daughter can still turn out as a beautiful person inside and out with many talents and lots of friends even if she doesn't have everything the other kids do.
We will be fine without all of the extras we have become accustomed to.
So now what I like to think of as my real journey begins....
I am going to do what I have to in order to spend more time doing what I love (reaching out to others and help them and helping myself live a healthy life,) spending time with my daughter and my husband (both of whom I have neglected too much for too long already,) and getting back to my time with God. My friend Tammie recently agreed with me about how I felt better when I gave my time to Him and felt His presence.
I have so many blessings and that is where my time and energy deserve to be spent.
I am thankful that this all started because of me but with the help of someone who is special to me. Without her, I wouldn't have made changes and given the time to take care of what I need to. My coach Krysta is my rock. She gives me guidance and keeps me grounded. I don't even think she knows how deep her impact sits with me.
I want to spend my days waking up when I set my schedule. I want to get my workouts done while my family sleeps, spend the day taking care of my home and my family. Having all of my meals (basically) at home so I control what goes into my body. Then spending time connecting with old friends and new and helping them the way Krysta chose to help me. Having nights again with my family and not worrying about every single thing I have to do the next day and how someone else is going to feel about what I have or have not done.
I feel a bit like I am rambling now but I when I get to thinking about my dreams and how this is going to be my year I get so excited. There is much coming up that I am looking forward to. Also, hopefully the big change that I desperately crave so I can move on. I know that much of this post seems to a downer. But you have to know the beginning to understand the well, continuation.... because my journey doesn't come to an end until my spirit soars.
Just you wait until I start telling you about health and fitness. You are going to be amazed at all I have to say....
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