It's ok, it really is

I have not had much success recently following my food plan. I've been an emotional eater for a long time and old habits die hard. Inconsistency, absent mindedness and one excuse after another gained power over my progress. It started with one bad choice and escalated. I'm having a difficult time finishing out my full time job and being ready to embrace my new upcoming adventure. I continue to have mixed emotions regarding successes and failures. I have difficulties often still with comparing myself to others. I don't need a lecture about how that is not a good thing and how I should stop. I know this, I'm not blind to the fact that it hurts and hinders me. Doing that is another story!!!

I am so thankful for my Shakeology. Ok, so I told you have not been successful in my food plan so let me be specific. I drink my shakeology every day because it makes me feel good, it's delicious and I just don't want to go without it. I still don't have junk available at home and I don't buy anything other than water at work anymore. I am eating too much!! I get frustrated, I walk into the kitchen. I grab fruits, vegetables or protein bars and I eat. It's not time for me to eat nor am I hungry, but I eat. Here I am trying to coach other people and I am failing my own plan.

You know what???? Ah ha!!!!! It's ok, it's really ok. I can have an off day.. I can have an off week. I have work to do. I will always have work to do. I don't have to be perfect, I have to be me. I have to make mistakes to grow and to be strong!! I will wake up every day knowing it's a fresh start and make a plan to do better... to be better. I'm going through a lot of adjustments and sometimes I just have to slow down so I can give my all instead of trying to do too much. I am on track with my workouts and not every day this week has been unsuccessful with nutrition. So even a few bad days won't set me back, they simply slowed down my progression. I get in my workouts, but that doesn't mean I can get away with poor nutrition so I have to keep that in the front of my mind. After all you can't out exercise a bad diet.

I absolutely believe that it's important to share struggles. It let's other people know that it's ok to make mistakes and that I am human. It's relatable and as a coach I want that. I want people to know what happens on my journey so they can hopefully feel less discouragement on theirs. Because I believe in what I'm doing!!! I also know at the same time that there will absolutely be discouraging moments. It's all about how we react to these moments and how we push on.

I will continue to work on my personal development. I am learning to embrace change, make a commitment and be consistent, how to love myself flaws and all!! It's going to take forever because there will always be something I can make better and that is exciting!! Number one for me right now is to stop comparing myself against everyone and everything. I will learn it's ok for me to be where I am at personally and professionally.

I think maybe some people expect me to be sunshine and rainbows all the time. I AM in fact a very positive person but I'm real and I'm realistic. I have a positive outlook but that does not mean I will never feel down or never have struggles and I refuse to keep them hidden from the world. This will just have to be ok with everyone else, because it's what is. I already feel a thousand times better shouting out that I have flaws and it's ok, it really is. New day starts soon. I am prepared for making good decisions!!!

I do need to give a shout out to all the people participating in my free ab challenge. I'm in that group as a coach and trying to influence good decision making with exercise, water and nutrition and this group is keeping me in check and motivating me more than they could possibly know. I am so glad it's going on right now, it is amazing and so much fun!! I hope they are having as great a time as me.