I've been pretty hum drum lately. I have tried to keep any misery I was feeling at home and keep my spirit light and positive for the rest of the world. It wasn't hard, because what I want to share with the world is all of what makes me feel fantastic!!
Let me just say that I have some amazing things happening in my life. My daughter continues to blossom and amaze me in new ways everyday, I am still taking the best possible care of myself with working out daily, clean eating and Shakeology. My business is starting to have an impact on the lives of others and it feels terrific to watch peoples lives change because they simply watch what I do. I just don't know how it gets any better than that.
So, this misery I was referring to.. here it is....
Adam and I have made the decision to move. It's not a move in the same area or even anywhere in my beloved state of Michigan (yes, I said it beloved.) We are moving to Toledo, OH. I know I know, I'm acting like we're moving to the moon. I just have so many mixed feelings. I love living in Michigan, I have spent darn near my entire life here. We had been looking at moving south in the last few months, but we had been talking south as in warm climate. If I can't be in a warm climate, I'd like to be where I've spent most of my life.. it's familiar, it's comfortable.
I am seriously concerned about the effect it will have on Lily. I know that no matter what, she will move on but even thinking about the pain she will likely have breaks my heart into pieces. She has her school, her friends, her activities and her family. We will be moving closer to some relatives, but the the people who have cared for and loved her since she was born are no less our family. She is going to miss the people that have been around, that have given her the sparkle in her eye. It's just so hard.
Toledo seems to be presenting us some nice opportunity and things are falling into place so quickly, that I have to believe that God wants me on this path and all things will work out as they should. I'm not saying it's going to be easy or that I'm happy about it but I'm not going to let it make me miserable. I'm going to move forward knowing that it will be sad when we leave but the good times are not over and if I only hold onto my faith in what will be, life will be all I need it to be.
I will remember that in life there are no guarantees, only choices. I've chosen to create a new lifestyle for myself and that has been my priority and that stays with me wherever I go. I choose to embrace this move the best that I can. I will focus on my personal development because I feel better when I do. I will work on my goals/vision I have set for the year because I've lost sight of where I want this year to go and how I can get it there.
So, jumping around my topics here as usual. But this is what's up, this has been my struggle and now you know. You know, now I even feel a little better. Signs are all around me and I've been ignoring them until now when I discovered all the signs were for this move, so I had my ah ha moment... it's time to move on!!
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