This happens to me a lot...
I sit down to write a post and I go blank.
I sit down and start typing a post and I get to the end finding it makes little sense. If it makes little sense to me, nobody else has a hope of understanding.
Why does this happen? I know why it happens, I'm just not entirely sure how to make it stop yet.
Why it happens----- Excitement!!! Passion!! Even FEAR!! And that is the answer for why both of those scenarios happen.
I write down ideas and topics I want to post about but sometimes I don't know everything I want to say about what it is and so I sit and I stare at the computer screen until I become so frustrated I close the computer and tell myself I will worry about it another day. Yes, worry. But why the heck should I worry about it. I don't pretend to be some incredibly popular or talented blogger. This is my space and I don't owe anybody anything. What is the deal with that? Fear, that little bugger... he'll keep you from amazing things if you let him!!!!!
So let's not focus here and now on Fear, there is enough of him out there already.
I have to tell you that in the month of July I have spent more time being excited than anything else. Why you ask (you know you did)? Because I have Passion. They go hand in hand. I have spent more time doing activities that I enjoy, spending time with people I love and controlling what I can. I got to go to Disney World with the two loves of my life (my favorite place ever.) I got to spend though small, time with my parents. I got to go to Nashville with people who I admire. I have gotten to spend every day (except while I was off having my own fun) of summer vacation with Lily. This has truly been the most amazing and rewarding summer I could have asked for.
What do I get to do that makes these days so much fun? I read for fun, I browse the internet for fun, I workout for fun, I eat for fun (well, and because I have to), I swim, I go to the zoo... Oh my gosh I do so much and I enjoy all of it!!! These things I do for fun, I also do because they are my job. One year ago, I would have told you that were insane, you were mistaken and you were full of something if you told me I'd be living my dream. My dream to stay at home with Lily, to have a job doing what I want when I want, to be happier and healthier than I have been in years... and yet, it's what I am doing!!!
I went to Nashville this month for Coach Summit!! Wow!! Being surrounded by thousands of individuals who share similar stories, goals, achievements... it blows your mind. Not one of us was the same and we had so much to share. I met individuals who were incredibly successful with reaching all kinds of goals; financial, mental health, physical health!!! You can't imagine! It really got me thinking about why not me?? I must have written it down a hundred times. There were people there who overcame poverty, anxiety, obesity AND sickness/disease (Cancer, for example.) If these substantially difficult situations were turned into success, what holds me back?? There is that little bugger fear again. I have so many things I can be afraid of, but why do I need to be? Instead, I choose to think of what I could make happen if I wasn't so afraid. That doesn't mean I don't get uncomfortable, hello a person doesn't change overnight. But if I am uncomfortable, I am growing, I am changing the world or at least someone's world (always for the better) and that gets me excited!
I know I say it frequently, but seriously who wouldn't?? If you find an opportunity to be excited, grab onto it and don't let it slip through your fingers. I am beyond blessed with happiness and opportunity. I sacrifice some things in order to have others and often that is what it takes to make your dreams come true!! I don't own fancy jewelry or cars, expensive clothing (or really even much new clothing), I rarely go shopping for anything other than groceries and I love it because that means being able to do what I have to at home with Lily or to build my business because it's up to me to build something from nothing, not anyone else. This my friends is EXCITING!!!
When I get excited I have all of these thoughts and ideas that seem to attack me at once. One idea growing into another then another then another until my head is so full I just can't process it all. I'm the kind of person who just has to take it slow and my excitement gets in the way of that and then I'll be honest I can get discouraged from not being an overnight sensation. Then that Passion that I have for all that I do kicks in and won't let me quit. I may be slow moving, but I'm always moving. I may take steps back but I push forward. I WILL NOT QUIT!! Because if I give up anything because of being discouraged I'm only letting myself down. If I quit, I lose MY dreams, MY progress, MY goals... everything of MINE!!
So how do I get this excitement under control???? Honestly, I don't know. I only know I have to take things one step at a time and have a lot more patience with myself. Why is it that we are so much harder on ourselves? What are we trying to prove? Who are we trying to prove it to? Why? Seems silly, doesn't it?!
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